blog, i’ve found you again. i, admittedly, am the world’s worst blogger. i could never do a 365-challenge as i would fail. miserably. i feel that admitting this in every entry is a way to re-enter conversation with you, my few, beloved readers. a sort of “hey, how you doin’? where ya been?” welcome.
here we are. that dreadful week between christmas and new year’s, aka, holiday hangover.
when “a christmas story” airs for the final time on christmas day, and especially in those last few moments of the movie, i become almost instantly depressed. you know the one. the moments where the mom comes down the stairs to a darkened living room, illuminated only by the glow of the christmas tree, and mom and dad sit quietly in front of the picture window, watching the snow fly. it makes me happy and sad all at the same time, but mostly sad as, for me, those final few moments signal the end of christmas day.
other signals abound. radio stations stop playing christmas music. christmas trees lay at the end of the driveway with last week’s trash (sidenote: who are you grinches who tear down your tree the day after christmas? seriously?? my tree stays up until february). my outlook calendar looks bleak – no holidays or breaks in sight. it’s truly miserable for someone who so looks forward to the holidays and time spent just being with friends and family.
to top it off, new year’s is one of my least favorite holidays. (blasphemy of some sort, i’m sure, but i’m not worried.)
it’s not that i can’t let go of the past, or am scared of the future. it just new year’s has this air of melancholy that only drags me further into my own sort of seasonal affective disorder. even having celebrated new year’s 2010 on the beach in punta cana wasn’t enough to kick my distaste for all-things-NYE.
by the way, auld lang syne? saddest. song. ever??
so, rather than recap the year as nearly ever other blogger is probably doing (and i had done in my christmas e-mail), i’d rather write about the things i’m looking forward to in 2011. a bit of a holiday hangover pick-me-up, i suppose. something to pull me out of my post-holiday/pre-new year’s funk.
without futher ado, my 2011 to-do list:
- lapband surgery, aka, get healthy for good, aka, the first day of the rest of my life
- become an aunt (june 2011, godwilling)
- pay off debt
- save a bunch of $$$$
- take an incredible 30th-bday trip with my bff
- dust off my spanish
- buy a new camera
- run a 5k
- find the right volunteer opportunity
- give away everything i don’t need/don’t use
- get engaged???
- spend more time with family and friends
- live more simply
- tell people i love them more often
- smile harder
- laugh deeper
- cherish further
- …dance like everyone’s watching.****
*** i think that “dance like no one’s watching” is truly the cheesiest sentiment ever. i want to dance like everyone’s watching because my dance moves are amazing. also, “new year, new you” is equally atrocious and all-too-predictable. please don’t go there.
what’s on your 2011 to-do list? is there something that should be added to mine?
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